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In DESERTION or TEMPTATION.
I.
[Page 148]1 AH! my dear LORD, whose changeless Love
2 To Me, nor Earth nor Hell can part;
3 When shall my Feet forget to rove?
4 Ah, what shall fix this faithless Heart?
II.
5 Why do these Cares my Soul divide
6 If Thou indeed hast set me free?
7 Why am I Thus, if GOD hath dy'd;
8 If GOD hath dy'd to purchase Me?
III.
9 Around me Clouds of Darkness roll,
10 In deepest Night I still walk on;
11 Heavily moves my fainting Soul,
12 My Comfort and my GOD are gone.
IV.
13 Chearless and all forlorn I droop;
14 In vain I lift my weary Eye;
15 No Gleam of Light, no Ray of Hope
16 Appears throughout the darken'd Sky.
V.
17 My feeble Knees I bend again,
18 My drooping Hands again I rear:
19 Vain is the Task, the Effort vain,
20 My Heart abhors the irksome Pray'r.
VI.
21 Oft with thy Saints my Voice I raise,
22 And seem to join the tastless Song:
23 Faintly ascends th' imperfect Praise,
24 Or dies upon my thoughtless Tongue.
VII.
[Page 149]25 Cold, weary, languid, heartless, dead
26 To thy dread Courts I oft repair;
27 By Conscience drag'd, or Custom led
28 I come; nor know that GOD is there!
VIII.
29 Nigh with my Lips to Thee I draw,
30 Unconscious at thy Altar found;
31 Far off my Heart: nor touch'd with Awe,
32 Nor mov'd — tho' Angels tremble round.
IX.
33 In All I do, Myself I feel,
34 And groan beneath the wonted Load,
35 Still unrenew'd and carnal still,
36 Naked of CHRIST, and void of GOD.
X.
37 Nor yet the Earthly Adam dies,
38 But lives, and moves, and fights again,
39 Still the fierce Gusts of Passion rise,
40 And rebel Nature strives to reign.
XI.
41 Fondly my foolish Heart essays
42 T' augment the Source of perfect Bliss,
43 Love's All-sufficient Sea to raise
44 With Drops of Creature-Happiness.
XII.
45 O Love! thy Sov'reign Aid impart,
46 And guard the Gifts Thyself hast giv'n:
47 My Portion Thou, my Treasure art,
48 And Life, and Happiness, and Heav'n.
XIII.
[Page 150]49 Would ought with Thee my Wishes share,
50 Tho' dear as Life the Idol be,
51 The Idol from my Breast I'll tear,
52 Resolv'd to seek my All from Thee.
XIV.
53 Whate'er I fondly counted Mine,
54 To Thee, my LORD, I here restore:
55 Gladly I all for Thee resign:
56 Give me Thyself, I ask no more!
Source edition
Wesley, John, 1703-1791. Wesley, Charles, 1707-1788. Hymns and sacred poems: Published by John Wesley, ... and Charles Wesley, ... London: printed by William Strahan; and sold by James Hutton; and at Mr. Bray's, 1739, pp. 147-150. x,[6],223,[1]p.; 12⁰. (ESTC T31323; OTA K034809.000) (Page images digitized from a copy in the Bodleian Library [Vet. A4 f. 254].)
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Other works by Rev. Charles Wesley
- The 53d Chapter of ISAIAH. ()
- ACTS i. 4. Wait for the Promise of the Father, which ye have heard of me. ()
- ACTS ii. 41, &c. ()
- ACTS iv. 29. ()
- After a Recovery from Sickness. ()
- Another. ()
- Another. ()
- Another. ()
- At MEALS. ()
- CHRIST the Friend of Sinners. ()
- Congratulation to a Friend, upon Believing in CHRIST. ()
- FREE GRACE. ()
- GAL. iii. 22. The Scripture hath concluded all under Sin, that the Promise by Faith of JESUS CHRIST might be given to them that believe. ()
- Glory be to GOD on high, &c. ()
- GRACE after MEAT. ()
- GRACE after MEAT. ()
- GRACE before MEAT. ()
- GRACE before MEAT. ()
- HEB. xii. 2. Looking unto JESUS, the Author and Finisher of our Faith. ()
- HYMN after the Sacrament. ()
- HYMN for ASCENSION-DAY. ()
- HYMN for CHRISTMAS-DAY. ()
- HYMN for EASTER-DAY. ()
- A HYMN for MIDNIGHT. ()
- HYMN for the EPIPHANY. ()
- HYMN for WHITSUNDAY. ()
- HYMN of THANKSGIVING to the FATHER. ()
- HYMN on the Titles of CHRIST. ()
- HYMN to CHRIST the King. ()
- HYMN to CONTEMPT. ()
- HYMN to the HOLY GHOST. ()
- HYMN to the HOLY GHOST. ()
- HYMN to the SON. ()
- IId HYMN to CHRIST the King. ()
- IId HYMN to CHRIST. ()
- IIId HYMN to CHRIST. ()
- In AFFLICTION. ()
- ISA. li. 9, &c. ()
- ISAIAH xliii. 1, 2, 3. ()
- JOHN xv. 18, 19. ()
- JOHN xvi. 24. Ask, and ye shall receive, that your Joy may be full. ()
- JUSTIFIED, but not SANCTIFIED. ()
- The MAGNIFICAT. ()
- MATTH. V. 3. Blessed are they that mourn. ()
- A MORNING HYMN. ()
- On Reading Monsr. de RENTY's Life. ()
- On the Conversion of a Common Harlot. LUKE XV. 10. There is Joy in the Presence of the Angels of GOD over one Sinner that repenteth. ()
- A PRAYER under Convictions. ()
- ROM. iv. 5. To him that worketh not, but believeth on Him that justifieth the Ungodly, his Faith is counted for Righteousness. ()
- SOLITUDE. From the Latin. ()
- Therefore with Angels, &c. ()
- To be sung at WORK. ()
- Written in the Beginning of a Recovery from Sickness. ()
- ZEAL. ()